There is a Beatles song called " There Are Places I remember" the lyrics say
There are places I remember
All my life, though some have changed
Some forever not for better
Some have gone and some remain
All these places had their moments
With lovers and friends
I still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life I've loved them all
But of all these friends and lovers
there is no one compares with you
And these memories lose their meaning
When I think of love as something new
Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more
Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more
I have been listening to this song over and over and it makes me think of days gone by and the people that walk in and out of our lives. One we love and always will, ones we lose touch with but still remember fondly and those we just will never no matter what despite the good times had cannot bring oureselves to let back into our lives for whatever reason. I recently recieved an email from such a girl I went to high school with. We werent necessarily inspeperable but were very close friends throughout our four years and double dated with our boyfriends and promised to keep in touch until your old and grey ( the typical kinds of high school promises made until you realize that getting old wouldnt involve 6 months later falling out of friendship.) Its funny that she came to this realization after two years of not being friends and taking my now exs side over mine upon our breakup after highschool -- as did many of my other girlfriends simply because they all wanted a shot at him and he well,,,, thought he could do better. I was very hurt at this and it only got worse,i grew very distant from what were my best friends in high school as well as the old boyfriend who had basically been the closest person to me other than my family in all my life. I would see these girls out when I would return home and there was always hostility always an unspoken who did what to whom only the only thing i ever did wrong was leave home to attend higher education and never realized my soon to be ex best friends would drop me in a hot minute to try and get with the first person i ever truly loved. Its bad to say but wounds like that dont ever heal. Where are the rules stating that when you break up with someone you should leave with the friends you come in with but unfortunately that isnt always the case. Chalk it up to girl on girl crime for this one but this was the breaking point. So how do you know when you can forgive if you arent feeling like it can be forgotten. Theres been two years of being apart, nothing that binds us together other than the fact we have a past, and nothing in common anymore but our hometown i only visit for holidays and the occasional weekend. Why the sudden want to be reunited.... if i was such a great friend why stop being my friend in the first place? it just makes no sense to me. They were the salt in the wound of my broken heart and deserted me when I needed it most. How can I ever forgive. In my life ive given so many second chances and been walked all over like a doormat because of it so why do i feel like i just cant do it anymore. how many chances can one person give? It may sound selfish or wrong but I just dont know this time. its everytime i finally start to let that stuff go that something always seems to dredge it up again. friendships dont end for no reason so why do people feel the need to rekindle if theres been so much damage done? In this case i dont know what my reply should be, could it be that im second choice now? they are no longer close to my ex so therefore maybe they feel as if theyve made the wrong choice? I dont know if i could trust her, i tend to blind trust, trust friends blindly until they do something to make me realize they didnt deserve it in the first place. I never thought these girls would do that to me andyet they did. in 730days that have gone by why isnt it easier to just let it go, let the water under the bridge be and be friends again?
There are places I remember
All my life, though some have changed
Some forever not for better
Some have gone and some remain
All these places had their moments
With lovers and friends
I still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life I've loved them all
But of all these friends and lovers
there is no one compares with you
And these memories lose their meaning
When I think of love as something new
Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more
Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more
I have been listening to this song over and over and it makes me think of days gone by and the people that walk in and out of our lives. One we love and always will, ones we lose touch with but still remember fondly and those we just will never no matter what despite the good times had cannot bring oureselves to let back into our lives for whatever reason. I recently recieved an email from such a girl I went to high school with. We werent necessarily inspeperable but were very close friends throughout our four years and double dated with our boyfriends and promised to keep in touch until your old and grey ( the typical kinds of high school promises made until you realize that getting old wouldnt involve 6 months later falling out of friendship.) Its funny that she came to this realization after two years of not being friends and taking my now exs side over mine upon our breakup after highschool -- as did many of my other girlfriends simply because they all wanted a shot at him and he well,,,, thought he could do better. I was very hurt at this and it only got worse,i grew very distant from what were my best friends in high school as well as the old boyfriend who had basically been the closest person to me other than my family in all my life. I would see these girls out when I would return home and there was always hostility always an unspoken who did what to whom only the only thing i ever did wrong was leave home to attend higher education and never realized my soon to be ex best friends would drop me in a hot minute to try and get with the first person i ever truly loved. Its bad to say but wounds like that dont ever heal. Where are the rules stating that when you break up with someone you should leave with the friends you come in with but unfortunately that isnt always the case. Chalk it up to girl on girl crime for this one but this was the breaking point. So how do you know when you can forgive if you arent feeling like it can be forgotten. Theres been two years of being apart, nothing that binds us together other than the fact we have a past, and nothing in common anymore but our hometown i only visit for holidays and the occasional weekend. Why the sudden want to be reunited.... if i was such a great friend why stop being my friend in the first place? it just makes no sense to me. They were the salt in the wound of my broken heart and deserted me when I needed it most. How can I ever forgive. In my life ive given so many second chances and been walked all over like a doormat because of it so why do i feel like i just cant do it anymore. how many chances can one person give? It may sound selfish or wrong but I just dont know this time. its everytime i finally start to let that stuff go that something always seems to dredge it up again. friendships dont end for no reason so why do people feel the need to rekindle if theres been so much damage done? In this case i dont know what my reply should be, could it be that im second choice now? they are no longer close to my ex so therefore maybe they feel as if theyve made the wrong choice? I dont know if i could trust her, i tend to blind trust, trust friends blindly until they do something to make me realize they didnt deserve it in the first place. I never thought these girls would do that to me andyet they did. in 730days that have gone by why isnt it easier to just let it go, let the water under the bridge be and be friends again?
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